Who I am.

alot of you dont know me, for me.

My names Brittany.
im 15, born in Connecticut, Raised in NY.
ive had 17 surgeries in the past 6 years, for reasons ive already explained.
Its shaped me into what i am today, and is still a constant struggle everyday.

i have many dreams.
my main dream is to grow up and go on tour.
i love the life style.
or a tv show host or interviewer.

i also love photography, but i dont think id ever go into a career with it.

right now im a sophmore.
im hoping to graduate and go into college studing psychology so i can be a psychologist, guidance counselor, something in that field.

im a huge concert goer, jonas or non jonas.
jonas being my favorite though.
ive been to atleast 30-35.
my first concert was the backstreet boys.(;
ive been to 8 jonas concerts.
incredible.
every jonas fans needs to see them live atleast once.

ive met the boys 3 times.
something that i am extremely grateful and thankful for.

i like little things and people who make me happy.
id be lost without my itouch which is kinda sad.

ive knwon my best friend since i was 4.

i have an odd fascination with Joe's personality.
im truly moved and taken back by the person Nick Jonas is.
thinking about him brings me to tears sometimes.
I have an odd time to time urge to miss kevins old hair, back in the early days.
i obsess over his smile.

the song that got me into them was 'Just Friends'.

i like to say random words, epecially when im on the phone.
my favorite being "blub".

im a badass at concerts.
especially hardcore ones, that arent jonas.
i can push my way up to the front like you wouldnt believe.

i have a deep fear of chucky the killer doll.
my mom was going to buy a chucky doll and put it in my stocking this past christmas.
nice, right? :I

my tv is constantly glued on MTV.
that show runs my life.

im a strong believer in standing up for what you believe in.
and not letting others bring you down.
i try to stay strong, but sometimes i always cant.
but i do try.

im wearing an i <3 boobies" bracelet right now. support breast cancer!<3

i work out to much better.

im obsessed with running in the rain, with hoodies on to protect my hair.

im a very sarcastic person.
i say things i dont mean.

i may joke, but theres certain things id never say to a jonas brother.

i like making my own jonas parodies to songs.

i LOVELOVELOVE the city.
and seeing cool dancers on the subway.

im addicted to sleep.

i love steve wilkos.
his shows the beast.

i like breaking out to random Ke$ha songs.
like a fool.
my pants arent on the ground though.
i keep 'em up.

i bumped into andy from Honor society.
twice (;

i have a high pitched voice when i get mad.
i sound like minnie mouse, according to my mom and friends.

i wouldnt be who i am as of right now without the jonas brothers.

my mom had my name picked out in highschool, way before i was born :]

my dad wants me to marry joe jonas.

im an only child.

no pets.

lalalalalalalala.

im a random person.
i annoy myself sometimes.

i think thats all for now.

ask me some questions on formspring?

http://formspring.me/teamkenielle

Hello Beautiful Pt. 2

i dont understand why people feel the need to bring others down.

we've ALL either made fun of or have been rude to other people.
i have, im not going to sit here and act perfect.

but bringing others down is wrong.
whether it be weight, hair, makeup, clothes, self esteem issues, anything, you shouldnt bring someone else down.

ive realized now that even joking, is wrong, and im sorry to whoever in my past 15 years of living who i have hurt.

ANYWAY,
before you judge anyone, or make fun of them, look at their situation.
have you ever thought that you making fun of them only makes them feel worse?

bullying hurts.
ive been through it many times, especially with my surgeries.
people cant control things, and you shouldnt make fun of them or bring them down because of it.

if youre going to make fun of, or hurt someone else, it shows insecurity in you.
the fact that you have to go around making fun of others displays you as a mean and rude person.

if youre "defending yourself", does it make it okay for you to touch the looks matter of things?
even if the person calls you ugly first, you should know youre a BETTER person then that, and rise above it and ignore it.
but instead people think to go back with something even more harsh.
thats not going to solve anything.


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we were all made to be equal.
but somehow in life we dont end up being that.

we're all beautiful.
and i think the word "beautiful" has been labeled as something that its not.

to be beautiful, you dont have to have perfect hair, straight teeth, bright eyes, the perfect body, the expensive clothes.
THAT is NOT beautiful.

being beautiful has more to do with whats on the inside, with who you are as a person.

a beautiful person respects themselves, loves themselves, and doesnt bring others down.

now, if you dont respect or love yourself, that doesnt mean youre not "beautiful" but maybe you should think about why you think that.

just because you dont have all those things i listed up there ^ doesnt mean youre not beautiful.
those things are all material.

everyones beautiful in their own way, shape or size.

i think if everyone thought of themselves as beautiful, or didnt bring others down, the world would be a different place.

(:

dont bring others down because of the negativity you have with yourself either.
"you cant love someone until you love yourself"
not that youd love someone you make fun of? haha.
but you cant expect to be nice or love someone if you dont love yourself first.

everyones good enough, you all need to stop doubting yourselves.
youre all beautiful :] eeeveryone is.

im so done with these games.

im really, honestly, getting sick and tired of the over obsessive fans.
theyre giving the rest of us fans a bad rep.
does anyone ever take into consideration how the boys feel?
YES, they love their fans, but they're NORMAL guys.
what do you think they think when your screaming your head off at them?
screaming your head off, isnt a way to show them youre a true dedicated fan.
at concerts, scream bloody murder, (just not during albl (; ) i dont care.
but im tired of all us jonas fans getting labeled as obsessive maniacs.

i dont know about you, but i dont freak out when i see them.
do i have a loud voice? HELL YEAH, i have a loud voice.
but i scream when the times right.
not when theyre a foot away from me.

I KNOW, your excited.
I KNOW, its THE JONAS BROTHERS... asdfghjkl;!@$%&#.
but the REALITY is, that theyre 3 guys.
theyre 3 guys who once lived in a small house in new jersey.
theyre 3 VERY BLESSED boys, who are grateful for all they have.
they adore their fans.

but some obsessive fans cant grasp that theyre normal.
you have got to be kidding me if you dont think joe doesnt laugh or get amused by girls death shrieking his name.
its crazy.

the boys like cool collected fans, not people trying to STEAL THEIR STUFF.

like HONESTLY? WTF? thats rude disrespectful and TOTALLY wrong.
thats a one way ticket for the boys to loose all respect for you.

ive been a fan since '07, and im sick and tired of getting a bad rep.
everytime someone finds out im a jonas fan, they freak out, and assume im one of those crazy fans.

when in all reality, im NOT. i am far from a crazy fan.
and im sure some of you are too.

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the boys have changed my life, and have taken up a big part of it.
im a true fan, and ive never given up on them, like ive seen other fans do.
nor am i ashamed to like them.


i know people are mean, and theyll harp and harp on you for being a fan, but if you TRULY love them, youll stick around.

if people will go as low as to make fun of you for liking a band, what kind of person are they?

who you like as a musical artist shouldnt matter.

the boys have given me so much hope.
i couldn never give up on them, i need to thank them for what theyve done.
in no way can i just be ashamed of being a fan when i owe so much to them.
im so grateful brandon understands my love for them because honestly, i couldnt be in a relationship with a jonas hater.
they mean to much to me.

it really saddens me that some fans have hidden their love.
i understand if you wanna stop being a fan totally for your own reasons.
but if you are one and your hiding it, what kind of fan are you?


im sorry if ive offended anyone, these are just my feelings.
ill make an inspirational blog next, dont worry (:

stay beautiful
xoxo
brittany<3

-Games & the lovebug.

now, before i start, i NEED to say, THANK YOU.<3
hearing all of your response to my tweets and last blog made me so incredibly happy.
i hope my words have reached some of you, and i hope ive helped even a little (:
*the Team Jonas secret that was posted on facebook, legit made my night, week, month.
it means alot that someone cares so much (:
if any of you are apart of it and love me so much, feel free to make one, i love reading them (:



Anyway, more boy issues, i feel its needed (:
like i said, you cant fully love someone else and be in a good relationship if you dont love yourself.
if you dont love yourself, and who you are, you cant expect to love someone else, fully.

Anyway, games.
it happens with all douchebags basically.
now, im not saying every guy is like that (:
but, guys like to play games, with our minds, and hearts.
ive learned from past relationships that SOME guys are not in it for love, they're in it for other things.
things that shouldnt be manditory with love.
if a guy wants you JUST for hooking up, or he doesnt want people knowing hes "seeing" you, what kind of guy is that?
is THAT the guy you want to call yours?
one thats ashamed to be with you?

now, i know when you start getting feelings its HARD to just stop, and i totally understand.
but, you need to think of what you deserve in life.
and all girls deserve a guy that treats her well.
not one thats using her.

if a guy doesnt appreciate you, or respect you, then re-think why youre with him.

(:

now, for the lovebug part.

i know you girls like guys.
there are AMAZING guys out there, just look at my boyfriend (;
im telling you, the BEST relationships come with FRIENDSHIP.
dont change who you are t make him like you.
that all stems back to "if a guy truly loves you, he'll love you for who you are"
if you change yourself, thats not who you truly are.
thats changing yourself to become something youre not.

get to know each otherrrr.
become comfortable.
TEXTING is always good hahaa.
if you like a boy, dont be like pushy or clingy, just take time.

i know its hard to wait and wait, believe me, i lost hope too.
but if you think its truly worth it, stick around, dont easily give up hope.

if the guy knows you like him, and he tells you he doesnt like you back, maybe its a sign of something better coming along.
"when one door closes, another one opens"
keep that in mind as well(:

im sorry this is short, but im leaving to go somewhere super soon ;]

ILOVEYOUGUYS!
youre all amazing and beautiful.
never give up, just hold on (:
xoxo,
brittany.

-Hollywood (...and heartbreak)

**okay, so Hollywood is obviously a JB song but I added the heartbreak for a reason.

our life isn't like Hollywood.
one day, we're not going to wake up and have every little thing we want.
I think Hollywood sends out good and bad examples to teens like us.
good, because some rolemodels are humble and nice, like the boys.
but most Hollywood images are fake.

not everyones a skinny twig, I'm not, and I'm proud.
I've seen girls change themselves to become wanted or looked at as beautiful, like the girls in "Hollywood".
the fact is, no matter how hard we try, changing our outer appearance does no good.
each one of us were made for a reason.
to change yourself for anyone, a boy, a friend, even the boys is ridiculous.
the boys will love us alsong as we're TRUE fans.
the chances of us being with, now, joe or nick is slimmm.
anyone in your life should love you for the person you are.
and if they don't, you should take a moment to think about why they're still there.
if, for instance, a boy is telling you that you should change or he doesn't like you, DONT change who you are.

girls, you need to LOVE yourselves enough to realize that you're amazing.
everyones unique and different in they're own way.
we all need to be, or else we'd all be the same.
but changing who you are is NOT worth it.
if that guy is dumb enough to not see who you are, is he worth it?
if he doesn't like you for who you are, will the relationship work out?

that's how I was.
before brandon, I went out with a guy, on a date to the movies.
douche doesn't even BEGIN to describe him.
but he told me everything I wanted to hear.
but all he really cared about was hooking up.
the whole movie he had his hand on my boob, was slurping an icee, and insisted on showing me the blister on his thumb... by putting it in my face...
YEAH, let's just say I gave up after that.

but something good came from that.
that night I talked to brandon, after my date
and he made me feel so much better :]
(that WAS NOT the first time we met, I. knew him like 2 years before that)
but he still had a girlfriend. :|
that shortly ended there after, we liked each other and BAM here we are :)
ANYWAY.
all I'm saying is, DONT change yourself.
you'll date guys who aren't for you, they might pressure you, tell you things you want to hear, but only YOU know in your heart what's right for you.
**REMEMBER- sometimes the BEST relationships start out as friendship, that's what Happened with me and brandon, now look at us!(;
if you start off as friends, you become closer and get to know each other better.
believe me, it's worth it.

I'm not saying this because I have a guy like brandon.
I'm saying it because before I was just like some of you.
I lost hope on guys and myself.
but what JB taught me was to NEVER loose hope.
I didn't, and was blessed with brandon.
I truly believe everyone is destined for someone else.
wait, and I promise you'll find your "brandon" soon (;

alot of girls have low esteem, and sometimes I do too.
but everyones unique in their own way.
every girl is beautiful, in their own way.
don't change yourself.
find reasons why you love yourself.
look in the mirror everyday and say I love myself, or say something good about yourself.
it may help boost your self confidence.

I know some of you may think I'm crazy or stupid for saying all this.
but I can't stand it when girls change themselves for guys.
or stay depressed for days after a break up because they think it's their fault.
OH, and if a guy wants to keep your relationship a "secret" or on the DL, BAD IDEA.
if a guy truly likes you, he wouldn't care if people knew.
why should he be embarrassed?
he obviously doesn't see you for the person you TRULY are.

girls, remember you're beautiful, and worth it!
keep in mind what you deserve.
and keeeeep it bouncin', duhhh.(;

love you guys!
if you need me @reply me or Im me @ britxoxxxx
I'm always here<3
-Brittany!

-Hello Beautiful.

Every girl is beautiful in their own way.
Every girl has something unique and special about them.
Every girl is different.
Every girl is a gift.

i think a lot of people forget this.

there are days when i wake up, and i just feel like going to school in sweats, when i feel like throwing my hair up in a dirty bun, no makeup.

but can i do that? no.
i feel as though i need to look presentable, pretty.

i guess every girl does that.

but sometimes i wish we could all just have that day, where we could go out in public without a care in the world of what others think.


people loose sight as to what "beauty" really is.

beauty isnt what comes on the outside, its whats inside.

its not how straight or curly your hair is, its not designer clothes.
its who you are as a person thats beautiful.

everyone has so many different qualities, everyone has something to give.

always remember, you may be having a bad day, but somewhere, in this big world, a girl just like you, is having a bad day too.

we all have each other to lean on.



never underestimate your beauty, never forget that all of you, are amazing people.

you girls are beautiful, and have made me feel so blessed, i love talking to you girls everyday!

im sorry for this random post, but i just had to say it (:


xoxo,
brittany(:

-Before the Storm

So, before I start, I just want to say thank you to you guys<3
I've gotten qlot of feedback saying I'm inspiring & that you love my blog.
that means SO much to me! if any of you ever need any help, I'm always here (:

anyway, this blog is gonna be about ex's.
yes, those dreaded ex boyfriends.

I guess your ex will always mean something to you, depending on the situation.
with me, I could care less about my ex's.
they didn't treat me right, and they were douchebags.

but, in some cases it can be hard.
I'm sure some of you guys still have feelings towards your ex.
it's hard to pass him in the hall, to see him with someone else possibly.
my ex lives directly accross from me.
sucky, right? :p
when I go to get the mail, and he's playing basketball, or he's at his window on the computer, I'll get this cringing feeling in my stomach.
why? I really don't know.
probably because I wonder what couldve happened if he didn't change once we hit highschool.
if he stayed the same Tyler I knew since I was 4.
he was my first crush.
we'd have playdates, go swimming together, do all that cute kid stuff.
he was the first guy I got jealous over, when he was holding a girls hand in 5th grade xD
but once I hit middle school, I started liking other guys too.
Tyler was still in my heart though, he was my main crush for most of my life.
we went out for a bit in 8th grade.
until the day he broke up with me.

everyday we'd walk home together.
so right when we were making the turn to walk down our road, he paused and said these words:
"yeah, this whole 'going out' thing, it's not gonna work out, sorry"
then just kept walking home.
it felt like my heart had been ripped out, and stepped on, hundreds of times.

we stopped walking home together, for the whole year, and since then actually.
that day, two years, was the last day I talked to him.
I see him everyday.
we say nothing.

looking back, am I sad now?
no, no I'm not.
because he's turned into a guy I want nothing to do with.
first year of highschool he turned into a cocky conceited douchebag.
he's disrespectful, rude and has had about 5 girlfriends since me?
yeah, I want nothing to do with him now.

after he broke up with me, I realized what I deserved and that that happened for a reason.
because now, I'm happier than ever with brandon.
HE'S the kind of guy I needed in my life.
he's the EXACT opposite of Tyler, he cares, he loves me for me and he genuinely makes me happy<3

now, not all ex's are douchebags.
sometimes you can still stay friends with them, which is awesome.

do I still wonder what couldve happened with me and Tyler before the storm?
eh, sometimes. but I drift into reality and realized that we weren't meant for each other, that brandon is who I want to be with, who I need to be with.

girls, always remember that everything happens for a reason.
when one door closes, another will open.
and I know that from experience (:
I lost Tyler and got brandon(:

you need to remember what you deserve, don't settle for anything less.
COMMENT THIS-- leaving questions or issues your having with ex's (:
I'll answer it in my next blog (;

I love you guys!
xoxo,
Brittany.

"with every strike of lightning, comes a memory that lasts, and not a word is left unspoken, as the thunder starts to crash.