-Before the Storm

So, before I start, I just want to say thank you to you guys<3
I've gotten qlot of feedback saying I'm inspiring & that you love my blog.
that means SO much to me! if any of you ever need any help, I'm always here (:

anyway, this blog is gonna be about ex's.
yes, those dreaded ex boyfriends.

I guess your ex will always mean something to you, depending on the situation.
with me, I could care less about my ex's.
they didn't treat me right, and they were douchebags.

but, in some cases it can be hard.
I'm sure some of you guys still have feelings towards your ex.
it's hard to pass him in the hall, to see him with someone else possibly.
my ex lives directly accross from me.
sucky, right? :p
when I go to get the mail, and he's playing basketball, or he's at his window on the computer, I'll get this cringing feeling in my stomach.
why? I really don't know.
probably because I wonder what couldve happened if he didn't change once we hit highschool.
if he stayed the same Tyler I knew since I was 4.
he was my first crush.
we'd have playdates, go swimming together, do all that cute kid stuff.
he was the first guy I got jealous over, when he was holding a girls hand in 5th grade xD
but once I hit middle school, I started liking other guys too.
Tyler was still in my heart though, he was my main crush for most of my life.
we went out for a bit in 8th grade.
until the day he broke up with me.

everyday we'd walk home together.
so right when we were making the turn to walk down our road, he paused and said these words:
"yeah, this whole 'going out' thing, it's not gonna work out, sorry"
then just kept walking home.
it felt like my heart had been ripped out, and stepped on, hundreds of times.

we stopped walking home together, for the whole year, and since then actually.
that day, two years, was the last day I talked to him.
I see him everyday.
we say nothing.

looking back, am I sad now?
no, no I'm not.
because he's turned into a guy I want nothing to do with.
first year of highschool he turned into a cocky conceited douchebag.
he's disrespectful, rude and has had about 5 girlfriends since me?
yeah, I want nothing to do with him now.

after he broke up with me, I realized what I deserved and that that happened for a reason.
because now, I'm happier than ever with brandon.
HE'S the kind of guy I needed in my life.
he's the EXACT opposite of Tyler, he cares, he loves me for me and he genuinely makes me happy<3

now, not all ex's are douchebags.
sometimes you can still stay friends with them, which is awesome.

do I still wonder what couldve happened with me and Tyler before the storm?
eh, sometimes. but I drift into reality and realized that we weren't meant for each other, that brandon is who I want to be with, who I need to be with.

girls, always remember that everything happens for a reason.
when one door closes, another will open.
and I know that from experience (:
I lost Tyler and got brandon(:

you need to remember what you deserve, don't settle for anything less.
COMMENT THIS-- leaving questions or issues your having with ex's (:
I'll answer it in my next blog (;

I love you guys!
xoxo,
Brittany.

"with every strike of lightning, comes a memory that lasts, and not a word is left unspoken, as the thunder starts to crash.